Y it ends tonight



everything ended , it ended ! it ENDED .
well , everything went back to normal .
brother's back , cousins gone back to m'sia and i starting to feel lonely .
it all happened so fast . in a snap of a finger .
said goodbye to them ytd . &yes i agree goodbye is so hard to say eh ;/
GAH , stupid luh .
i miss my cousins leh , LOL .
and for some reasons , i feel like crying .
i'm that weird , one moment i feel like crying and the other i feel like laughing .
i get irritated easily by anyone , that makes me ignore them .
i even did that to my cousins , this makes me feel so bad .
like i said , i get irritated these days .
sometimes i just feel like closing my eyes and never open it again .

after all that i've gone through ,
nothing's worst than what my poor brother had gone through .
then , i know i should treat him better in the future .
and today , i just helped him pull the chair out
and he even said thank you .
it's been long since he said thank you to me .
awww , i feel like crying now , one tear just rolled down my cheek .
in the past , i didnt even know that such brother-sister love can exist between me and him .
i think people at this age dont know how i feel ,
you may think i'm talking crap , but maybe few years later you will come to
realise what's the meaning of pain and misery .
all you care about is relationships now , but for me i don't .
it's just a waste of time .
friendship is of cos important , i've heard many stories about friendship .
some can really turned out nasty .
some looked kind in the outside but cunning in the inside .
and it's defintely hard to tell who is good or bad .
maybe your friends ard you is lying to you , you may not know .
haha , and you know , maybe there are friends ard me who always lie to me ?

so isn't life interesting ?
although sometimes i find it such a pain .
and after all you've gone through ,
family will always be the one to be there for you no matter good or bad things may happen .
the only thing i look forward to now ,
is CNY of cos .
and heh heh , my birthday present from my cousin
becos we VS each other in winning 11 and i won him ,
first match 3-2 , second match 2-1
hahah funny sey , he even talked big .
he's damn old alr , heh hehs , also born in the year of chicken , so he's 26 .
gosh , so old ehs ? speaking of him , he suddenly pop up and talk to me on msn ,
speak no evil :X
wahahhahaha

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